I think I’m a reasonable person. At least most of the time. But still, pretty often I find myself doing a very strange thing. I procrastinate.
I know what I like to do and why. I know what goal I want to achieve and what exactly I have to do to get there. But I don’t do it. I used to look for excuses, like, I have no time, I am not ready, I need to learn more about how to do it… Now I know it is all crap. These all are made-up reasons not to do what I have decided to do. So I don’t look for an excuse anymore. I just don’t do anything. Yep, as simple as that. I don’t even promise myself I’ll start next Monday. I know so well that Monday will come and go, and I won’t move a finger.
I believe every psychological issue has a root, and there’s no sense to try to fix yourself until you find this root, the seed that caused the whole problem. Looking for this seed, I have read so many articles explaining reasons for procrastination. They all make sense, but something is missing. I understand why people procrastinate, in general; I understand it, really, but I can’t apply this knowledge to change my own route, my personal approach. All those ready answers, like fear of failure or fear of success, don’t help; they don’t seem to be right or personal enough to explain what forces me to sabotage my own plans when I have developed a step-by-step strategy and a strict schedule. Am I that lazy or don’t I care enough? Maybe my goals are not really mine? Maybe I’m nuts and ask too many absurd questions?
“My doctor told me I shouldn’t work out until I’m in better shape.” This is my vicious circle. Thank you, Steven Wright, for putting it in words for me. I can’t start changing until something changes, who knows how and when.
Can it be that procrastination is my destiny and all I have to do is surrender? I think it can be, especially if I choose Steven Wright as my best adviser. “I bought some batteries, but they weren’t included.” Yeah, exactly, I know what he’s talking about.
not that i’m promoting a post of mine but i just wrote about blogging being the antidote to my writer’s block and procrastination. http://listentothebabe.com/2014/11/24/why-do-you-blog/
It is a very interesting post, thank you for the link. I get your idea of blogging as a way of pushing yourself to write. But in my case, procrastination is not about writing only. It involves so many other things, and I truly cannot get what stands between me and myself, but there is something for sure. And I have to figure it out.
good luck! in the meantime, keep writing.
Ha! Funny, I’m not really a procrastinator but there are things on my list of ‘simply will not do!’ Hey, just noticing your crowd fave and editor pick Yeah Write ‘stickers’. Congrats!
Thank you! These stickers seem accidental but I still like them 😉
Me – I’m just lazy. I denied it for years but that’s what it amounts to I think. Good luck with your quest!
Thanks 🙂